wroughtandtempered | SEASONS

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"...This is Eve. Leave a message if you want. Or just fucking text me, I get those fast."

I let myself be angry for once. It didn't go well. I didn't attack anyone at least.

Not sure if I feel better than if I held it in but I don't feel worse. I just feel different. After I slept anyway.

oh shit
I'm sorry it didn't go great but
good job anyway okay?
for trying

and not feeling worse and not hurting anyone is a good start
I mean it
compare that to what would happen if you held it in until it exploded

do you want to talk about it at all?

I didn't fight anyone. But I hurt Macaque. I know I did. With my words. I scared him too.

I don't want to put you in the middle of it more.

Ur already in the middle enough.

I wanted to tell u bc you listened. And I'm listening too. I'm trying.

[ Eve 🔪 is typing...
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okay
I did roll my own ass into the middle on purpose tho
you didn't put me there

and trying is literally all anyone can fucking ask
do you want reassurance slash my opinion?
or would that sting right now

I mean
yeah
More
uh don't know his name.
Doesn't matter.

Yeah. i do. plz?

okay
I'm going to use a gross metaphor sorry

I think getting mad
especially if you're kind of backed up
is a lot like lancing an abscess?
sometimes it hurts
a lot of the time it's gross and gets nasty shit everywhere
and then you have to clean everything up

right now you're in the cleanup phase and it sucks
but you got through it
and I think or at least I hope Macaque maybe understands you a little better even if things were fucked up in the moment

fuck this is cheesy as fuck sorry
but I have faith in you
in the both of you but you especially

That
was
really
really
fucking gross.

But yeah. It makes sense.
Like a lot
Wow.
Still gross.
Like super gross.
lol

Not sure how I got that much faith from you.
but ill def take it.

look Im a healer slash doctor that's the way I think okay
I tried not to get super graphic or whatever the fuck
sorry lmao

[ Eve. Eve how is "gets nasty shit everywhere" not graphic, girl. ]

there's a lot of reasons but
I saw the painting you did
it's hard to put it into words but
you're a good dude with a lot of care in your heart doing your best
what's not to put my faith in

[MK reads the text. And re-reads it. And re-reads it again for a third time. His heart hurts reading those words. Both for good and bad reasons.]

that makes me feel a lot better right now
i kinda got super mad
and i told Macaque i was a monster
and i deserved everything that happened to me after i hurt Korone

its been a bad time lately with Porty and everything there too.

oh fuck

it makes sense to be mad at yourself
but if you were really a monster you wouldn't give a fuck about any of that shit
you're just a person who fucked up
most of us have done that a time or two
or more

definitely more
for me

i dont know what to do right now
sleep aint on the menu
thats 4 sure

your turn to try to listen to yourself
the instincts are still good
sleep's no good but do you need to settle down
or have something else to focus on?

thats a good uno reverse
lol
wait. oh
OH
thats an idea. yeah. I know what im gonna do!

thanks Eve!

hey good advice is good advice!

and you're welcome
let me know if there's anything else I can do
but it sounds like you've maybe got it
😊

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