apologetic (and anxious, and deeply, deeply affectionate in a way that is trying to be steadying): ]
I think that's a better question to ask— maybe a therapist, or something. I think it matters, because how you define shit matters, but that's... it's in a different direction? Than how it matters to know how- how a loss would hit you.
...Grief is the price we pay for joy, is... I think that's how the saying goes? And grief fucking sucks. But if you can manage to look it in the eye, and say "fuck you, that was worth it..."
[ longing. longing, and grief, and resignation, and spite ]
...I don't know. That's how I usually think about it, when the idea comes for me too hard.
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apologetic (and anxious, and deeply, deeply affectionate in a way that is trying to be steadying): ]
I think that's a better question to ask— maybe a therapist, or something. I think it matters, because how you define shit matters, but that's... it's in a different direction? Than how it matters to know how- how a loss would hit you.
...Grief is the price we pay for joy, is... I think that's how the saying goes? And grief fucking sucks. But if you can manage to look it in the eye, and say "fuck you, that was worth it..."
[ longing. longing, and grief, and resignation, and spite ]
...I don't know. That's how I usually think about it, when the idea comes for me too hard.